Indiana Joanna (khakipants) wrote,
Indiana Joanna
khakipants
  • Mood: depressed
  • Music: "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" - Jewel

Don't mind me, it's just that I'm turning 23 in three days.

Once again, the population of UMBC (including my sister) has returned to campus, and I am not among them. There's a good reason for this, granted, in that I graduated over a year ago. But it's depressing. More so, I think, than last year at this time. Last year at least I was flying to Cancun on a regular basis. I didn't have to use my intelligence, but I was getting sunlight and free authentic mexican food and lots of time off and I still had the recent memories of classroom stresses to protect me from the non-student blues. But now I've had time to distance myself from the stress, I'm working 9 hours a day in an office, with approximately 4 hours at home (mostly spent in front of my computer) before going to bed at FREAKING 10:30 PM and I never see my friends because we don't all live within a 2-minute walk from each other and I don't find real joy in talking on the telephone. Besides, I just miss school.

I'm a receptionist. With a college education. There is no way that this is what I want to do with the rest of my life. I don't dislike it or anything; I've had significantly more good days than bad at this job. But why am I wasting valuable time? I'm still at an age when I should be exploring new things, learning and meeting people and having adventures. I should be having the time of my life! Or at least figuring out what I want to do with it. Why on earth am I so directionless? Why do I have zero ambition?

I wish I could just run away on a bicycle. Or leave next month for grad school on the other side of the country.

I wish we were all back at school.
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